Saturday, October 13, 2012

Homestay: the middle and end


Government:
            While we have been in Bangata the two political parties ( CCM, the current party, and Chadema the young party) have been campaigning up and down the streets everyday.  This campaigning consists of supporters driving up and down the main (only big road) road with a big microphone and music playing the parties theme song or chanting their moto’s. There have been rallies, parades and the daily cars driving by blaring music and chants. It has been really interesting to witness the election process of Tanzania and talk with my family and other people about each political party and why they like them. For the most part the majority of people that my friends and I have talked to don’t really know exactly why they support a certain party they just do. For instance most people here supporting Chudema support it because it brings a change, although they can’t put into words what that change is or what they represent. CCM supporters on the other hand for the most part are the same only supporting them because they feel they have done a good job and they hand out baseball hats and kangas every election year. And although the majority of the people don’t really know what each party stands for there are people who really know whats going on and they provide interesting takes on each party. CCM supporters for the most part say yes they have their flaws but so will Chadema once they take office while Chadema supporters have a lot of Beef with CCM which basically all surrounds the corruption.
For me not knowing much about either party I feel CCM is definitely corrupt with the NGO’s and other fiscal issues, but they know how to run a government for the most part while Chadema although new, fresh and young will also be persuaded to be corrupt and because they are young and none of them have ever held any office position I feel they will not know how to run a governmental system as big as Tanzania. This being said I think for Tanzania at this point the fact that they even have an oppositional party is a HUGE STEP! A friend and I were talking to a Chadema supporter named Barnabus and he was saying how to run for a governmental position you could have never been in jail. In Tanzania it is incredibly easy to put somebody in jail aka you just put them in there, therefore CCM in the past has figured out ways to put any hint of an opposition in jail and thus cut them from the race, this happened to Barnubus. Coming from America where this blatant of corruption never happens it was incredibly interesting and eye opening to talk first hand to a guy who had experienced this kind of direct corruption. Although America has its issues surrounding the election process, witnessing and learning about Tanzania’s elections has made me incredibly thankful to live in such a democratic society.

Other random corruption regarding the voting process
1.     The voting system in place makes it so you have to vote where you are registered. So people who work outside of where they live are left to dry coming voting day if they aren’t home.
2.     Schools will register kids of voting age but CCM has closed those schools on Voting day so that the students can’t vote.


Homestay lasting thoughts
            Homestay overall was an amazing experience. It definitely had its rough patches and has without doubt been the hardest part of this trip but I think it will be the part of the program I take away the most from. Although my homestay family was amazing and I will really miss them it was hard to ever feel totally comfortable at home unless I was falling asleep. I was never totally sure what I was doing and not being able to eat when I want, take a break and just lounge around or not feel bad because I wasn’t helping mamma, playing with the kids or doing something to help with the household work definitely took it’s toll on me. Being away from home but also in a home definitely reminded me a lot of everybody at home and the little things would make me homesick. Especially when I had to go pee and couldn’t open the door I really missed having toilets inside the house… Around mid homestay I was getting mentally exhausted from 4 hours of Kiswahili in the morning then other school stuff in the afternoon, then going home and having to communicate solely in Kiswahili while also playing with kids or helping momma so by the end of the day my brain hurt and my body was exhausted. It was hard to constantly be around people and have the only alone time be while I was going to bed or the occasional visit to the toilet when I didn’t have kids talking to me through the door. It was crazy to live in a reality where even among us students the girls had to do a lot more work while the boys walked the cows or got drunk with their Baba’s. There would be days when I felt like I couldn’t speak Swahili, I was frustrated that I couldn’t peel tomatoes, I couldn’t poop, I couldn’t talk to my friends back home, I couldn’t eat coco puffs or the normal part of a cow and I couldn’t lounge on the couch doing nothing and not feel bad about it. Those were the days in which it was hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel (I know it’s a cheesy saying), but that being said the last few days at homestay has been awesome. I felt closer to my momma and brothers, I could peel tomatoes like a pro and I didn’t even crave coco puffs.
            Also on a random note, to all the Frisbee players I have a new conception of what the term “carb up means”. Literally in one day I will have 4 pieces of white bread for breakfast, fried donut things for chai time, rice/ chipati/ spaghetti/ ugalli/ some big empty white carb for lunch and then for dinner more empty highly processed carbs. All we eat here is carbs, spinach, some other vegetables and sometimes some type of meat from usually somewhat questionable parts of the animal. I have never eaten so many carbs in my life.

Momma:
I became extremely close with my momma and I will miss her a lot and she has said she will cry when I leave. Although we could never talk about anything of true significance because of the language barrier I feel that she considered me one of her own kids because of the way she treated me. She held my hand in the crowded market so I wouldn’t get separated from her, she arranged play dates and people to walk me to school, she taught me how to cook and do laundry and when I thought I was having an appendicitis (long story but thanks America mom for reassuring me that it wasn’t) she tried everything in her power to help me feel better. And although eating more food wasn’t exactly the solution to that problem it is the cure all for Bangatans and the fact that she exhausted her ideas for remedies meant a lot.
            Momma was my teacher and honestly probably helped me learn the most Swahili. She was an incredible source of knowledge about bangatan culture and even bought me fabric at the market to have a dress made for me. Momma couldn’t have been much older than me but she always worked her butt off and every time I felt annoyed or tired I thought about Momma and realized I shouldn’t be complaining. 
Brother and his friends:            
I finally figured out who Amon is, he is my moms little brother and I grew way closer to him as well. because he has so much responsibility around the house and does so many different chores I sometimes forgot that he was only tweleve but when we would play and I would tickle him or goof off with him I realized that he was still just a kid. Kids here are given so much responsibility from such a young age and are expected to do SOOO MUCH! Amon alone wakes up around 6 starts sweeping the yard then helps make the morning tea then goes to school. Once back intermingled with play he feeds the cows, watches junior, helps cook, fetches fire wood, washes his cloths, gets supplies from the Duka, and in general does anything Momma needs him to do. This culture of work among the children exists with every kid I have met. There is one boy Denise who is ALWAYS watching his baby brother, I never see him without him and Denise is probably 10 or 12 and seems to be in charge of this kid. Kids as young as 5 are expected to help out around the house an incredible amount. Parents of kids now, when every your kid starts complaining about the few chores they have to do tell them that as soon as kids get home from school in Tanzania they get straight to work doing “childrens work” which consists of but is not limited to: fetching water and wood, cooking, watching their siblings, sweeping the yard/house, washing dishes by hand, washing cloths by hand, getting whatever momma needs from the store, or feeding the animals and they do this everyday. ON average they probably spend close to about half their free time after school doing chore work.
Trash:
            The idea of waste management in Tanzania does not really exist. To throw any trash I might have away I throw it in the “garbage can”  which is literally a tree that they then burn every once in awhile. When not at home, to throw away banana peels, orange peels, or even plain old trash you just throw it on the ground. My whole life it has been so ingrained in me to throw trash away in the trashcan and recycle everything I can, yet here even thinking about recycling is useless when they don’t even have a system in place for trash. It takes almost all my will power to throw trash on the ground or on a tree because I have such a moral dilemma/ block to throw trash on the ground. Even tossing fruit peels feels so incredibly wrong. So far for the last three weeks I have saved all my trash in my room and have yet to figure out what to do with it, who knows maybe I’ll just end up coming back to the U.S. with it?
Everybody else:
            I think one of the most tiring parts of being here was the 30 minute walk to and from school having to say high to everybody I passed. It definitely got to you to constantly greet EVERYBODY. Coming from the west coast I am used to a friendly smile from total strangers and the occasional hello but here a regular greeting to almost everybody you see is as follows: (older person)
    1. Muzungu (white person)
    2. Shikamo ( May I touch your feet)
    3. Marahaba, Hujambo (yes, ____)
    4. Sijambo ( no ____
    5. Habari za asubuhi/mchana/jioni ( whats the news of the morning…)
    6. Nzuri, na wewe (good and you?)
    7. Nzuri, pole (good, sorry (for walking))
    8. Asante pole ( Thank you, sorry for walking)
    9. Asante, kwa heri ( thank you, bye)
    10. Kwa heri. (bye)
And when it wasn’t this it was something else along these lines, sometimes shorter sometimes longer but normally something of this length. At first it was charming and really nice to feel a part of a culture that values personal face to face relationships so much but after a long day, being watched by everybody and talked to by everybody because you’re a white student got hard. I think the hardest part was being called Mzungu every freaking day. It got to the point where people who knew my name would still call me Mzungu and I would retort back nina itwa ABBY! ( my name is ABBY!). While it was increadibly hard to deal with I think it was a really important experience for me to have to be in the minority and feel like I was always being watched, judged , evaluated, and  picked out of the  crowed because of the color of my skin. I have never in my life been in a minority to this extent and it was definitely hard to deal with at times. By the end of the homestay I had to hold back at shouting NINA ITWA ABBY at anybody who called me Mzungu.
A statistic becomes a reality
On a completely different note. On Thursday morning one of my classmates found out that his little one 5 month old sister had died. He doesn’t know the cause or anything like that but she was sick two days ago went to the hospital and died there last night. You always here about baby surivival rates and how even now their declining but I never realized that I would be connected to this statistic, and even though I had never met baby Bill Gate it was still a huge blow to hear about that this morning. It was interesting because Dylan (the kid who lives there) said when he woke up he said the normal greetings “habari za asuhubui” and they replied back “Nzuri”. Its so ingrained in their culture to never say Mbaya (bad) that even when something this tramatic and devastating happens they without a second thought reply “Nzuri” (good). 
 There was a funeral for the Baby on friday and it was an all day event where people were in and out of the house paying their respects to the parents and then they buried her on the farm. 

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